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06 July 2009 @ 12:11 pm

Was in the supermarket with

empath_eia yesterday (yes, we are totally going to be Those People, the annoying types whose journals consist of schmoopy shout-outs to each other) I saw copies of Cassandra Cla[i]re's books. I didn't know whether to squee for her (dammit, I'll like who I wanna like) or be very embarrassed for her now that after all the shitty things the Internet has said, her books are now the dreaded "supermarket fare."

(Let's just say that, penniless as I am, you'd put any book I'd penned in a supermarket at your own peril. I'LL SNOB IF I WANNA SNOB.)

This settled firmly into embarrassment for the good Ms. Cla[i]re (I liked the I. Why did she get rid of the I?) when I saw the endorsement from Stephenie Meyer, of Twilight fame on the cover.

(Let's also say that even if I became published with my lackluster skills (and even more lackluster attempts at, say, writing a novel or contacting anyone who might be interested in it), and even if I met Ms. Meyer and liked her as a person, I wouldn't have her quote on my book. ~~I'm saving it for a_hollow_year.~~ Then again, I wouldn't intentionally write YA. The fact that my authorial voice is immature enough that everything I write reads like YA anyway is UNRELATED.)

Anyway, I kind of want to go back and take a picture of it, except

thegraybook has suffered enough.

For those of you skimming, PAY ATTENTION HERE.

doctorwhy is host to THE BEST WEBCOMIC EVAR, Worst of the Time Lords, (in space, no one can hear you cry into your pillow.) It's basically a walkthrough of the Doctor's rubbish life, and if possible has actually made me love him more. (As well as burst out laughing loudly at inappropriate hours.) Also, it doesn't forget to twist the knife a few times.

This bitter, self-loathing take on the Doctor makes me think of it almost as a sort of bridge between the Doctor and House in

empath_eia's fantastic fic, As the Crow Flies. (I know I've recced this here before, but. Relevancy! My schnookie-wookums!)

Iiincidentally, who would be willing to take a cross-country road trip (or lend their car for such a trip) for a little cash? (As it's me, a very little cash.) Not cross-Canada. That other country I don't like anymore. ~~As opposed to the stodgy one above it I never liked.~~ Feel free to ignore this part. I'm just asking everyone, even strangers.

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01 July 2009 @ 12:22 pm

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Well, dealing with some RL stuff that's been very stressful.

empath_eia has been a rock, like some kind of diamond that lols at pressure. ♥

I want to say, "It's made it hard to be happy" that I have this thing going on, but it isn't that at all--it's all too easy to be happy, here, and every time I smile or laugh or just plain feel good, I feel guilty, like I shouldn't be distracted when there are things to be done, and loved ones counting on me.

Enough of the ridiculous emoing, anyway. I hate when I look back on my LJ and see nothing but whining, like I'm some kind of miserable person who just bitches about one thing after another. Life goes on, we'll see it through, etc. etc.

It's a lovely holiday, and while browsing my flist I came across an absolutely delightful fic by

lotesseflower. It's LotR, bookverse, Frodo + Sam, and I think she does a lovely job capturing their dynamic. Go read it. The mood is bittersweet, and I am completely in love with how she blends the happiness of the Shire and the sorrow of the War of the Ring--I felt both vividly.

My flist also treated me to some more wank, which I take it is still happening. I don't know whether to sigh or lol. Wank never really got under my skin the way it seems to for some people, so I guess if you find that entertaining, knock yourselves out. (I did find it entertaining, but it got boring after a while.) It's starting to remind me a bit too much of middle school, but whatever. I love you all, you guys, even if flame wars are apparently the most productive way you can interact. ♥ But, if you decided you just wanted to ignore people you didn't like instead of yammering about each other to the exclusion of all else for months like some kind of homoerotic rivals, that'd be cool too.

I had a strange dream last night, too, but a lot of people find dream descriptions boring, so ( cut )

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17 June 2009 @ 10:34 am

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I'm having a recurring problem.

Watch series. Enjoy thoroughly. Love every character. See amazing fic potential. Go into fandom to see if anyone's written anything awesome for this series.

...and I'm greeted by a wall of negativity. Character hate, writer/creator hate, entire fucking series hate. Dude. People. I am here because I loved this series. You are here...why, again? I'm getting really seriously annoyed by the fact that I cannot go into any fan community without hearing people whine about how much they hated the series.

This has happened in nearly every fandom I've flirted with over the past year or so....so probably like thirty or forty fandoms. (Maybe it's not that many. It feels like it, though, and I tend to fall in and out of love with things within a week and then forget about them entirely.)

H8rs, GTFO of my (many) fandoms.

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On an only slightly related note, I watched a camrip of the new Star Trek movie. (Yes, I did find Star Trek bitchery in fandom, but I will give slight allowance for the fact that it's an old fandom and not everyone's going to like the new incarnation...but seriously, people, lighten the fuck up and go rewatch TOS if that's all you can find it in your heart to love.) And. So. ( Spoilery reactions. )

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15 June 2009 @ 10:41 am

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1. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me."
2. I will respond by asking you five questions.
3. You post the answers & questions on your journal.
4. You include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else.
5. Add meme perpetuation line, etc.

The flaw in this meme is since I've just posted it in my LJ it's gonna pop up all over my flist, so if I do it again I'm just gonna put the answers back here.

My answers to questions from

lexy_opal ( Read more... )

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02 June 2009 @ 10:47 am

Gacked from way back all around my flist

The problem with LiveJournal is that we think we're close, but really, we know nothing about each other.

So I want you to ask me something you think you should know about me, something that should be obvious, but you have no idea about, or something you've always been curious about but have never asked, or something completely silly that you'd like me to answer for kicks. No limits on the range of questions, either: ask me anything you want to know about, from my favorite flavor of ice cream or random opinions on fandom.

Ask away. Then post this in your LJ and find out what people don't know about you!

I thought this might be a good meme to do now, since I seem to be playing everything close to my chest. I'm a horrible LJ friend--I never know what to say on other people's posts, and I have even less to say about my own life, even when it's interesting! If my life is good, I worry that no one wants to hear how much better off than them I am, and if my life is bad, I think no one wants to hear me whine. I don't go into my emotional stuff because it's either too boring/emo or too intensely personal. I don't talk about fic that much, because I figure people want to see the finished product, not the dribs and drabs that I may never finish, and I don't talk about fandom that much, mostly because I'm hardly in any of them at the moment. I don't know what to say.

So ask me, anything at all.

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27 May 2009 @ 08:57 pm

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So, been meaning to post for a while, but I think everyone's getting thoroughly bored of my road posts. I haven't been taking pictures, and I guess it's one of those things where you just have to be there? Could be wrong.

Things that have been cracking me the fuck up the past few days:

1) Groogery Hoose. I seriously cannot think these two words without starting to laugh at least a little. Say it at the right moment and I nearly piss myself. This started as a play on

raihu's adorable Ontario accent, getting more and more exaggerated.

2) Shneersh and nairf. Just...go here, and for the love of god read both pages of comments. The entire thing is pure gold.

3) PURPLE MONKEY DISHWASHER.

Why yes, I am easily amused by nonsense words.

Anyway, have made it to BC and have probably gained like 20 pounds being fed by

empath_eia's wonderful family. We went kayaking today, and I was going to make some naughty-sounding pun about watersports, but couldn't think of a clever way to word it. It was all that and a barrel of purple monkey dishwashers. :D

Fandom-wise, I have no clue where I am. I seem to have lost my passion for just about every series. Well, I still love Doctor Who insane amounts, but it seems to be in a crackpot-theory-making capacity rather than in an actually-writing-things capacity, and I miss writing stuff. This has led to me kind of defaulting to Inuyasha, since that's the one fandom I can write in without having a passion for the canon. >.> I'm hoping to use the lull in obsessions to pick up and finish old and worthwhile projects in small fandoms, though. It could happen!

Maybe new episodes of stuff will catch my attention when they come out. WXM is supposed to be getting a second season sometime soon. And I am actually in the right country to watch it! But we don't have a TV.

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16 May 2009 @ 01:07 am

HI MOM, STILL ALIVE. :D

So, I've seen three of the Great Lakes (Ontario, Huron and Superior. LOTS of Superior) and some cool landscapes and Winnipeg sitting amongst the prairies where "you can watch your dog run away for three days." Or Winterpeg, as the locals apparently call it. Went through a blizzard on the road here. Kind of amazing, considering when I left the Hudson Valley, it was 90 degrees and in full blossom, flower petals flying everywhere in the wind. Allergies bothered me slightly when I went through Ontario, but by the time I got to northern Ontario the trees were kind of pre-budding, and most of them were evergreens anyway. Northern Ontario, btw. Lovely.

These are words that tempt fate, I know, but if anything it's seeming too easy. Not that I shouldn't start out with easier adventures. Considering there've been bits I barely managed to think my way out of. (Mostly involved with leaving. Once you're on the road, it's easy.) Is life supposed to be this easy?

Oh, and if you like 1) good writing, 2) fanfiction, 3) House M.D., 4) Doctor Who, 5) THINGS THAT ARE AWESOME, go read this. In fact, you could probably squeak by not knowing one or both of those fandoms, although at least knowing the characters helps, because the way it's written you can totally see them saying this stuff, which is how the best fic is. <3

I owe you ~~a kidney~~ something good,

empath_eia. Srsly.

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14 May 2009 @ 04:09 pm

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Left

raihu's yesterday, with nothing but the memories and those pictures I took of her sleeping. (Yes, they are real, almost posted them here, but I don't think I need her to hate me that much.) Turned down a last meal from

raihu's mom, opting instead to starve for two days. Completely worth the small bit of satisfaction. Baby, I love you, but your mom found every one of my hot buttons and jammed them hard. I think I did the same to her, but the difference is that I actually wasn't trying to piss her off.

raihu herself is someone I love more and more, though. Right now we just have different destinations, and I'm hoping we'll both have done fun and interesting things by the time we meet again. :D

So far, hitching is a satisfying experience. I do little dances by my pack on the side of the road, to look all adorable and energetic and possibly insane but who cares it works. Or I might really be part Indian after all, because I think I made it rain. Hmmm, maybe no more dancing.

As the less fortunate of you have already been bored by, I have a near-psychotic obsession with Doctor Who, and I say near psychotic because when I say I'm from Gallifrey I don't actually believe it. (Part of me is waiting for the other shoe to drop--I'll feel a second heartbeat and go oh shit and check into the mental ward.) Anyway, this was posted on a library door just north of Lake Huron, and it made me lol.

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12 May 2009 @ 11:06 am

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So, been hanging out with

raihu for the past few days, with much squeeing and some inside jokes we will now annoy the rest of the internet with. She is a strange bird, possibly a magpie, and this of course makes me love her all the more. (Seeing as I consider "normal" to be one of the gravest insults in the English language, YOU TAKE THAT BACK YOUR MOMMA etc etc.)

She has branded me an EVILDOER, and it is rather the truth. *g*

Canadian money looks kinda awesome. Pity I'm not allowed to earn any. >:{ LOUSY AMERICANS HERE TO STEAL OUR JOBS.

raihu has also introduced me to Yuletide, which I previously avoided due to my jihad against Christmas, and now there are THINGS I want to write for fandoms I didn't even know I liked. ~~And somehow they're all Doctor Who crossovers.~~

ETA: HOW DID I FORGET TO MENTION THIS,

plumepixie2 and I are ttly BFFs now. Something good came of all this wank! Reaching across the aisle does not mean "switching sides," and I am still

tropical_bitch true blue, you can pick your friends but you can't pick your friend's nose, etc etc THE WANK HAS A WINRAR AND IT IS MEEEEEE.

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06 May 2009 @ 12:01 am

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kelly1_watxm,

ruien,

raihu,

empath_eia, and other Canadians, pseudo-Canadians, Canucks, and people in fur hats:

I HAVE INFILTRATED YOUR COUNTRY.

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04 May 2009 @ 09:08 pm

Strange and wonderous luck

( YES IT IS ANOTHER ROAD POST KINDA )

ETA: I AM ONLINE FOR A BIT AND I MISS YOU ALL, COME SAY HI.

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02 May 2009 @ 01:43 pm

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Started out again yesterday. Land is v. pretty. Didn't gain much ground thanks to late starts--3PM yesterday, thanks to debacle at post office (HAET) and 11AM today, lolsleep. Anyway, have cleared Lake Seneca, and am in Geneva.

/proof that I'm still alive

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29 April 2009 @ 02:18 am

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Here in Ithaca with

dawnsama! And it's kind of funny and also kind of amazing to "meet" someone I've known for years, and say aloud the things I've always said in text, and yes, anyway, VERY MUCH SQUEE. Commence with the eating your hearts out, rest of the world.

dawnsama has popped my "meeting fandom people" cherry.

This is also a step in my trip I can't go back on, so home life had better hold tight without me for a few months. Last I checked it was on a high note, so onwards and upwards!

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28 April 2009 @ 10:23 am

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Yesterday started out absolutely hellish, but made quite a turnaround. I'm not going into all of it, as I was somewhat wrecked emotionally, but the bottom line is that the cats are safe and cared for, including my precious Cait! It was 100% worth it for me to come back here and do this.

I fully intend to be on a bus and on my way to see

dawnsama today. I've lost too much time to ride there, but I can still ride the rest of the way to

raihu's.

This experience has driven home how very screwed I would be if there weren't people who care about me.

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26 April 2009 @ 05:28 pm

Long story short....

That was not my cat I saw before. It was some other cat.

I fear I may never see mine again. Am horribly, horribly heartbroken. Also self-loathing.

Got kicked off the property where she was probably lost, so I can't even wander around in tears calling for her.

Stole a house. Shh.

Am leaving very, very soon. Was originally planning tomorrow, but day after might be better.

Right now there's just nothing left for me here.

EDIT: A bug on my computer is causing some of my LJ entries to be dated weird, including my last one (now fixed). I am sorry if it's fucked with any of your friends pages.

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24 April 2009 @ 10:35 pm

Update

We're going text tonight. FUNTIEMS.

So, today I made it up to Liberty around noon. You can google map it, it's about....eh, 20 miles or so from Ellenville to Liberty? Not bad, considering I THOUGHT THOSE WERE MOUNTAINS BEFORE, BUT HEY, THESE ARE MOUNTAINS. Elated to see ~*~civilization~*~ after 20 miles of abject poverty and lovely, but oh-so-not-containing-easily-obtained-food mountains, I stopped in a library. Library! Wifi! The crowning pinnacle of civilization!

I then IMed my mom. You know, the usual. "Hi! In Liberty. Not very stinky yet! How are things? The cats doing okay?"

The cats were not doing okay. In a day, she'd managed to lose two of them.

Fuck.

Fuck.

Fuck.

I spent several minutes, utterly torn. I had fought so hard for that ground on the mountains. The bike had been so heavy, the hills so steep, but I was winning. I was so enjoying my adventure.

I discussed this with

empath_eia and

ruien.

empath_eia pretty much told me to do what I thought best, but was very nice and sympathetic.

ruien told me there was probably nothing to be achieved by going back, and I'd resigned myself to this potential consequence when I left them in this situation. She was absolutely honest and didn't hold back any punches, and this is what I love about her, because she doesn't lie, she'll let you know if you brought this shit on yourself. And she also ended up playing a fantastic Devil's Advocate, because bouncing it off her I realized I already knew what I had to do, I just didn't like it very much.

So, I took the bus back.

In the first 15 minutes or so of being back, I found and caught one cat. :D I also spotted the other one safe and sound, but she ran from me. I know she's around, and I hope to win her over with food tonight. :DDDD She's here, she's alive, and I'm taking care of it.

My trip is NOT canceled, but since this fucks with my timing horribly (have to make it to Ithaca before

dawnsama starts finals, or worse, leaves) I am simply taking a bus to Ithaca, and riding from there up to Toronto. Still a decent trek, and it hardly puts a dent in my plans. ~~Also bypasses the Catskills, no I am not a coward I was prepared to do them, but kinda not sorry that I won't have to this time.~~

This also may work out for the best, considering I seriously overpacked my bike. I may simply ship some things to

raihu after all. There's no way I'm carrying all that when I set out again.

So, trip's still on, one cat's back in my care and the other is okay for now and I have strong hope, and today I got to steal from the rich and give to the poor, and also slap an asshole in the face in an unrelated event. All things considered, not bad.

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23 April 2009 @ 07:32 pm

the unofficial, unauthorised voice-post transcription

VoicePost

660K 3:16

“Captain's log: stardate (stargate?)... oh who knows. The stars are old. And they're not out yet anyway.

I started on my first day, and... well, there were mountains. and, it was a learning experience.

You see, when you pack a bike, you put the heavy things on the bottom so that your centre of gravity is lower. Apparently, I did not know this (notice). How I passed 5th grade physics is anyone's guess --and there is no 5th grade physics, I know that, I'm just playing around-- ANYWAY,

I had to repack (my bike?). Which was fun (ky??). And it took me a lot longer than it should to go 20 miles, but I went 20 miles. And apparently I went to <a href="http://villageofellenville.com">Ellenville</a>, which I wasn't originally going to visit but I needed to, because I needed to print up directions, WHICH are completely different from the directions I thought I had before because I went to Ellenville and that apparently confused google a little too much. and google's already gotten me lost a couple of times, so if I trust them....... don't know. I have two sets of directions and I think I'm going to flip a coin in the morning. Well, let's see, what else...

The mountains are beautiful. Steep, but very, very beautiful. And I tried to take a picture of them but I apparently broke my camera when I dropped the bike a couple of times, and if anything else is broken I'm going to cry. Crying over the camera was tempting too.

As for everyone telling me to be safe, amusingly, I think people are more afraid of me than I am of them. I'm the unknown factor and people are very afraid these days for some reason, I can't figure out why. But they're afraid of just about anything and I'm just about something. So, they should be safe around me I guess, even though I'm not actually dangerous. SO...... I think that's about it. Did I have anything else... burning... to say? Oh yes...

Didn't really get to get online today, we'll have to see about that... later.

That's it for now. Oh yes.

The reason I only did 20 miles is because I got a late start because there was apparently no paper in the library where I started and... no, not enough paper, but no printer abilities --what kind of library can't print??-- Anyway,

(which?) was why I had the diversion in the first place, which is... no wait, this is rambling on too much. Anyway, the point is I got a really late start. I started...

After 1. So that's why I... I did so poorly. And I'll do better tomorrow. So, talk to you later. Bye.”

Transcribed by:

ruien

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18 April 2009 @ 05:42 am

So now I am on sadness pills.

Well, recently started taking Zyrtec for my tree pollen allergy. For those who don't know, every year I go through screaming hell as trees try to rape my eyeballs (pollen is how they reproduce! My eyeballs say no means no!) and Zyrtec is the only thing I've found so far that actually takes the edge off. The more consistently I take it the better, because once my eyes get rubbed raw they're easier to irritate.

I didn't notice any side-effects other than dry mouth the last few years I took it, but this time they're really knackering me. Drowsiness was the first thing I noticed, I'm sleeping constantly, and when I'm not asleep I'm wanting to be. Then I started getting depressed, and basically woke up today wanting to shoot myself in the head.

Wait, shoot myself in the head? But I'm in such a fantastic mood! Or I was....

So, a little googling and I see that lethargy, that "foggy" feeling and depression are just some of the lovely side-effects of Zyrtec. And apparently it's highly addictive, too? I can't imagine being addicted to something that makes me feel like this. Anyway, in previous years I kept forgetting to take them, so I don't think addiction is going to be a problem.

The pathetic part is that even knowing this, I won't stop taking them. I'd rather want to kill myself just cuz than want to kill myself because ARRGHH MY EYES FOR THE LOVE OF GOD MAKE IT STOP!!!11 And knowing I don't really feel that way helps. It's just my sadness pills! :D

Am taking this as a challenge. No damn pill is gonna tell me how to feel. In the meantime, POST HAPPY THINGS.

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14 April 2009 @ 10:42 pm

Eeee omg.

(Will update my last post soon, connection just a bit spotty at the moment.)

Soooo. FFN. Crossover support. (JUST as I am getting into Doctor Who and all the crossover possibilities in that fandom!) It's awesome! Plus, someone updated the IY character list, <333333 to you whoever you are. All the small characters I love to write obscure fic about are on there! Even Shiori! And Tsubaki! Even Byakuya! <333

Oh, FFN, for once ur doin it rite. (Only took you a decade or so to catch on.)

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09 April 2009 @ 05:44 am

Shag/Marry/Cliff

So, doing the old shag/marry/cliff meme. You guys know the drill.

( Includes picspam. Potential spoilers, probably nothing major. )

....

So, feel free to join in the hot memeing action. Give me three characters from any series you suspect I may be familiar with, and/or ask for three characters for me to give you. I go both ways! :D

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