Chugging along steadily! This story's gotten weird. (Gotten? Have you seen the premise?) Have opted, instead of starting at the beginning, to start in media res, with flashbacks spanning 600 years unfolding like a lotus around the present. (Or a kudzu...) As something to keep me motivated, it's amazingly effective, because I'm not getting stuck on where the plot is going--I just jump to somewhere else, and it's a whole new story to fall in love with. It's like a series of oneshots in the same fandom, except it's original and it's all going to come together in the end if I don't totally fuck things up.

Also, deliberate tense shifts. *headache* It is NOT a mess. It is a two-stroke engine of past and present bringing relevance with every revolution!

Tropes include: Deus Angst Machina, which turns into a Trauma Conga Line, facilitated by Good Thing You Can Heal, which is really just an excuse for Gorn, which is my Fetish Fuel.

HAH. NOW YOU WILL SPEND THE REST OF THE MONTH ON TVTROPES AND I WILL WIN WORDCOUNT FOREVER. MUAHAHAHA!

So, uh. Halloween. Went as Winter. [pic] [pic] [pic].

empath_eia went as a succubus. [pic]

Somewhat reluctantly doing NaNo. Um. Don't actually count on me to finish. This is me. (Although, it's probably a blessing that I don't finish stuff. When in doubt, I just kill everyone and the dog, that's me.) Anyway, NaNo. Fic lives over at im_in_ur_chest. (It's a ~*~motif~*~.)

This is a bit of discussion on the idea of "fetishizing" certain traits in a person, and why I don't think that's necessarily bad. Potentially full of fail. Probably not...well, the term "PC" is no longer PC, so taking a page from their book, I'll make an elaborate euphemism for the same damn thing: probably not in keeping with the current progressive opinion. This warning is simply that--skip if you think it's going to upset you and do not wish to be upset. It is not a CYA statement to protect myself from disagreement. As always, I welcome a good debate, should any of you be so inclined and of a differing opinion.

Also, it's kinda long.

( Fetishization and You. )

Can't find a HQ MKV of it to share, but here is a Megavideo link for those who can't see Hulu (grr). It's pretty LQ--I couldn't even make out the subtitles a few times in fullscreen. There's a LQ download floating around too, but I want the nice pretty HQ MKV. Will post it whenever I get it.

( Review--spoilers )

In other news, I am suddenly working on that old WIP AU wryyyyyy.

'kay peeps.

Inuyasha Final Act 01--Naraku's Heart (subbed in MKV format, so you can take the subs off for screencaps/if your Japanese is that l337) THANK ME, BITCHES.

If you don't fall down laughing at Mouryoumaru's twenty-foot-long spiked dong, you are a more solemn soul than I.

But I ♥ it, I really do. Kohakuuuuu. ♥ OP/ED SHOTS OF BYAKUYA HOLY YES DO WANT. ♥ I also shipped Kagura/Kagome like burning when I first read that scene in the manga, and still kind of do.

I'm not in this fandom. Shuttup. Go away. I hate you alllll. No not really just kidding you're awesome but muaaaaaah.

Guh. Okay. I'm going to give this a try. With my track record (flake!) it might end up abandoned, I make no promises, standard disclaimer, but it looks really fun and it's about time I did something creative/fun around here, so what the hey! I had one from like 2005 that I'm in no mood to dig up, sorry folks. I fail at life, etc etc.

Give me a prompt of some sort (a pairing, a character, whatever) and I will (probably) write a sentence or two on it.

Fandoms I will (probably) write for: (I might have forgotten some, ask if you're not sure. Bleach and Naruto are definitely not on the list. Anything else could be.)

DOUBLE PLUS AWESOME POINTS if it's a crossover. The crackier the better. If my brain is not broken, you're not trying hard enough. And for the love of god, don't request a pairing you can find five thousand of on FFN. Whatever it is, the world probably doesn't need more of it. Unless it's also something that gets hated on a lot, then lay it on me.

( Fandoms! )

Quality is guaranteed entirely possible questionable! Go!

IMPORTANT EDIT: You can't control porn or lack thereof. Mostly because I can't control porn or lack thereof. There might be porn. There might not be. Live with it.

So, sometimes fandom is something you can control, or think you can control. Sometimes it's just spinning the wheel. Or, since this is fandom, spinning the bottle. Round and round and round she goes!

Current interest is Final Fantasy V. If you're a fan of that too, join ff5fans. Started by the wonderful ajora, because that other FFV community was weird. (It's a fandom the size of a grain of rice, and they--the other one, not the cool one I'm pimping--have a bunch of weird rules like "no fanfiction." Umwhat?) ff5fans!

/pimp

So, I seem likely to be out of Inuyasha for a while. (THANK YOU FANDOM JESUS I THOUGHT I WAS OUT BEFORE BUT YA KEEP PULLIN' ME BACK.) Actually, really, truly not anything wank related, just kind of bored with the series and characters. I'll....probably be back to visit at some point. When the new episodes air, most likely. And there are a few minor projects in it I want to finish to try to avoid leaving a mess of loose ends.

I know kazaera is also between fandoms at the moment, and if she finds anything, there's a pretty good chance of me being pulled into it even if I haven't talked to her in ages and don't know what fandom it is. empath_eia is putting the old college try on me for D.Gray-man (WORD SALAD ON THAT TITLE ANY), and it will....probably be effective. ariyanaforever even mentioned a Cthulhu loli hentai visual novel that she was forced to play for an RP and I gather didn't like very much, which I asked for and got (thanks! <3) and....it's prodding some of my kinks just right. (Others, the more standard hentai stuff, it misses by a mile on me, but the world-hating perception-altering mindfuckery is gooooood.) And...the point is, if I had to pick, here, I'd really rather end up in D.Gray-man than in the (probably nonexistent) fandom of a CTHULHU LOLI HENTAI VISUAL NOVEL, JUST SAYIN'. Even ending up in True Blood fandom would be preferable.

I would, however, take the Cthulhu loli hentai visual novel over Twilight, which was a near miss for me. (I didn't like it, I swear! I wanted to fix it!)

So....let the battle for Aiffe's fandom soul begin.

Was in the supermarket with empath_eia yesterday (yes, we are totally going to be Those People, the annoying types whose journals consist of schmoopy shout-outs to each other) I saw copies of Cassandra Cla[i]re's books. I didn't know whether to squee for her (dammit, I'll like who I wanna like) or be very embarrassed for her now that after all the shitty things the Internet has said, her books are now the dreaded "supermarket fare."

(Let's just say that, penniless as I am, you'd put any book I'd penned in a supermarket at your own peril. I'LL SNOB IF I WANNA SNOB.)

This settled firmly into embarrassment for the good Ms. Cla[i]re (I liked the I. Why did she get rid of the I?) when I saw the endorsement from Stephenie Meyer, of Twilight fame on the cover.

(Let's also say that even if I became published with my lackluster skills (and even more lackluster attempts at, say, writing a novel or contacting anyone who might be interested in it), and even if I met Ms. Meyer and liked her as a person, I wouldn't have her quote on my book. I'm saving it for a_hollow_year. Then again, I wouldn't intentionally write YA. The fact that my authorial voice is immature enough that everything I write reads like YA anyway is UNRELATED.)

Anyway, I kind of want to go back and take a picture of it, except thegraybook has suffered enough.

For those of you skimming, PAY ATTENTION HERE. doctorwhy is host to THE BEST WEBCOMIC EVAR, Worst of the Time Lords, (in space, no one can hear you cry into your pillow.) It's basically a walkthrough of the Doctor's rubbish life, and if possible has actually made me love him more. (As well as burst out laughing loudly at inappropriate hours.) Also, it doesn't forget to twist the knife a few times.

This bitter, self-loathing take on the Doctor makes me think of it almost as a sort of bridge between the Doctor and House in empath_eia's fantastic fic, As the Crow Flies. (I know I've recced this here before, but. Relevancy! My schnookie-wookums!)

Iiincidentally, who would be willing to take a cross-country road trip (or lend their car for such a trip) for a little cash? (As it's me, a very little cash.) Not cross-Canada. That other country I don't like anymore. As opposed to the stodgy one above it I never liked. Feel free to ignore this part. I'm just asking everyone, even strangers.

Well, dealing with some RL stuff that's been very stressful. empath_eia has been a rock, like some kind of diamond that lols at pressure. ♥

I want to say, "It's made it hard to be happy" that I have this thing going on, but it isn't that at all--it's all too easy to be happy, here, and every time I smile or laugh or just plain feel good, I feel guilty, like I shouldn't be distracted when there are things to be done, and loved ones counting on me.

Enough of the ridiculous emoing, anyway. I hate when I look back on my LJ and see nothing but whining, like I'm some kind of miserable person who just bitches about one thing after another. Life goes on, we'll see it through, etc. etc.

It's a lovely holiday, and while browsing my flist I came across an absolutely delightful fic by lotesseflower. It's LotR, bookverse, Frodo + Sam, and I think she does a lovely job capturing their dynamic. Go read it. The mood is bittersweet, and I am completely in love with how she blends the happiness of the Shire and the sorrow of the War of the Ring--I felt both vividly.

My flist also treated me to some more wank, which I take it is still happening. I don't know whether to sigh or lol. Wank never really got under my skin the way it seems to for some people, so I guess if you find that entertaining, knock yourselves out. (I did find it entertaining, but it got boring after a while.) It's starting to remind me a bit too much of middle school, but whatever. I love you all, you guys, even if flame wars are apparently the most productive way you can interact. ♥ But, if you decided you just wanted to ignore people you didn't like instead of yammering about each other to the exclusion of all else for months like some kind of homoerotic rivals, that'd be cool too.

I had a strange dream last night, too, but a lot of people find dream descriptions boring, so ( cut )

I'm having a recurring problem.

Watch series. Enjoy thoroughly. Love every character. See amazing fic potential. Go into fandom to see if anyone's written anything awesome for this series.

...and I'm greeted by a wall of negativity. Character hate, writer/creator hate, entire fucking series hate. Dude. People. I am here because I loved this series. You are here...why, again? I'm getting really seriously annoyed by the fact that I cannot go into any fan community without hearing people whine about how much they hated the series.

This has happened in nearly every fandom I've flirted with over the past year or so....so probably like thirty or forty fandoms. (Maybe it's not that many. It feels like it, though, and I tend to fall in and out of love with things within a week and then forget about them entirely.)

H8rs, GTFO of my (many) fandoms.

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On an only slightly related note, I watched a camrip of the new Star Trek movie. (Yes, I did find Star Trek bitchery in fandom, but I will give slight allowance for the fact that it's an old fandom and not everyone's going to like the new incarnation...but seriously, people, lighten the fuck up and go rewatch TOS if that's all you can find it in your heart to love.) And. So. ( Spoilery reactions. )

So, been meaning to post for a while, but I think everyone's getting thoroughly bored of my road posts. I haven't been taking pictures, and I guess it's one of those things where you just have to be there? Could be wrong.

Things that have been cracking me the fuck up the past few days:

1) Groogery Hoose. I seriously cannot think these two words without starting to laugh at least a little. Say it at the right moment and I nearly piss myself. This started as a play on raihu's adorable Ontario accent, getting more and more exaggerated.

2) Shneersh and nairf. Just...go here, and for the love of god read both pages of comments. The entire thing is pure gold.

3) PURPLE MONKEY DISHWASHER.

Why yes, I am easily amused by nonsense words.

Anyway, have made it to BC and have probably gained like 20 pounds being fed by empath_eia's wonderful family. We went kayaking today, and I was going to make some naughty-sounding pun about watersports, but couldn't think of a clever way to word it. It was all that and a barrel of purple monkey dishwashers. :D

Fandom-wise, I have no clue where I am. I seem to have lost my passion for just about every series. Well, I still love Doctor Who insane amounts, but it seems to be in a crackpot-theory-making capacity rather than in an actually-writing-things capacity, and I miss writing stuff. This has led to me kind of defaulting to Inuyasha, since that's the one fandom I can write in without having a passion for the canon. >.> I'm hoping to use the lull in obsessions to pick up and finish old and worthwhile projects in small fandoms, though. It could happen!

Maybe new episodes of stuff will catch my attention when they come out. WXM is supposed to be getting a second season sometime soon. And I am actually in the right country to watch it! But we don't have a TV.

So, I've seen three of the Great Lakes (Ontario, Huron and Superior. LOTS of Superior) and some cool landscapes and Winnipeg sitting amongst the prairies where "you can watch your dog run away for three days." Or Winterpeg, as the locals apparently call it. Went through a blizzard on the road here. Kind of amazing, considering when I left the Hudson Valley, it was 90 degrees and in full blossom, flower petals flying everywhere in the wind. Allergies bothered me slightly when I went through Ontario, but by the time I got to northern Ontario the trees were kind of pre-budding, and most of them were evergreens anyway. Northern Ontario, btw. Lovely.

These are words that tempt fate, I know, but if anything it's seeming too easy. Not that I shouldn't start out with easier adventures. Considering there've been bits I barely managed to think my way out of. (Mostly involved with leaving. Once you're on the road, it's easy.) Is life supposed to be this easy?

Oh, and if you like 1) good writing, 2) fanfiction, 3) House M.D., 4) Doctor Who, 5) THINGS THAT ARE AWESOME, go read this. In fact, you could probably squeak by not knowing one or both of those fandoms, although at least knowing the characters helps, because the way it's written you can totally see them saying this stuff, which is how the best fic is. <3

I owe you a kidney something good, empath_eia. Srsly.

Left raihu's yesterday, with nothing but the memories and those pictures I took of her sleeping. (Yes, they are real, almost posted them here, but I don't think I need her to hate me that much.) Turned down a last meal from raihu's mom, opting instead to starve for two days. Completely worth the small bit of satisfaction. Baby, I love you, but your mom found every one of my hot buttons and jammed them hard. I think I did the same to her, but the difference is that I actually wasn't trying to piss her off.

raihu herself is someone I love more and more, though. Right now we just have different destinations, and I'm hoping we'll both have done fun and interesting things by the time we meet again. :D

So far, hitching is a satisfying experience. I do little dances by my pack on the side of the road, to look all adorable and energetic and possibly insane but who cares it works. Or I might really be part Indian after all, because I think I made it rain. Hmmm, maybe no more dancing.

As the less fortunate of you have already been bored by, I have a near-psychotic obsession with Doctor Who, and I say near psychotic because when I say I'm from Gallifrey I don't actually believe it. (Part of me is waiting for the other shoe to drop--I'll feel a second heartbeat and go oh shit and check into the mental ward.) Anyway, this was posted on a library door just north of Lake Huron, and it made me lol.

So, been hanging out with raihu for the past few days, with much squeeing and some inside jokes we will now annoy the rest of the internet with. She is a strange bird, possibly a magpie, and this of course makes me love her all the more. (Seeing as I consider "normal" to be one of the gravest insults in the English language, YOU TAKE THAT BACK YOUR MOMMA etc etc.)

She has branded me an EVILDOER, and it is rather the truth. *g*

Canadian money looks kinda awesome. Pity I'm not allowed to earn any. >:{ LOUSY AMERICANS HERE TO STEAL OUR JOBS.

raihu has also introduced me to Yuletide, which I previously avoided due to my jihad against Christmas, and now there are THINGS I want to write for fandoms I didn't even know I liked. And somehow they're all Doctor Who crossovers.

ETA: HOW DID I FORGET TO MENTION THIS, plumepixie2 and I are ttly BFFs now. Something good came of all this wank! Reaching across the aisle does not mean "switching sides," and I am still tropical_bitch true blue, you can pick your friends but you can't pick your friend's nose, etc etc THE WANK HAS A WINRAR AND IT IS MEEEEEE.

kelly1_watxm, ruien, raihu, empath_eia, and other Canadians, pseudo-Canadians, Canucks, and people in fur hats:

I HAVE INFILTRATED YOUR COUNTRY.

( YES IT IS ANOTHER ROAD POST KINDA )

ETA: I AM ONLINE FOR A BIT AND I MISS YOU ALL, COME SAY HI.

Started out again yesterday. Land is v. pretty. Didn't gain much ground thanks to late starts--3PM yesterday, thanks to debacle at post office (HAET) and 11AM today, lolsleep. Anyway, have cleared Lake Seneca, and am in Geneva.

/proof that I'm still alive